Mermaids

 

 So it has come to my attention that I draw some pretty nice mermaids, but if I try other stuff... well not always quite as nice. It kinda just comes to me when its a mermaid, but I have to fight my imagination when trying to make other things. Also, I noticed that I'm really bad at drawing males. I guess its cuz I'm a girl, but still, its not easy when I want to draw some cool scene with people fighting and I'm limited to who I can use :S Oh well. I'll work it out eventually. Any who, I drew this yesterday(which happened to be my mother's birthday) and I liked it, so here it is :D

Feeling Down

You know that feeling you get when you feel like everything is crashing around you and you feel your impending doom looming right before you, but you have no choice but to go forward and get crushed by the weight of failure and all the judgement and disappointment that will be thrown at you by everyone who knows you (anywhere from friends to siblings to your friends parents)? Yeah... I got that feeling and it keeps coming back to kick me in the shin and laugh in my face. I don't feel like going into specifics, but I needed to talk about it to someone, and who better than my imaginary friends on the internet? XP If someone DOES read this, oh well, and if not, all the better. Any who... I'm going to a big failure in the face of my family and friends soon and I'm not looking forward to it, but as I always tell myself, "Life goes on,"... its how I live. I could be facing something that makes me want to curl up and cry, but my failures aren't going to stop everyone else. No matter what I do its still going to happen, and I might as well face these problems head on. Despite what people think of me(brave, outgoing, smart) I know I',m WAY outta my league when it comes to everything I've been doing lately. Everyone had expected so much from me and I'm letting them down... I still think I'm going to make a difference SOMEWHERE and SOMEHOW, but when and how are still a bit questionable to me. If you've seen my "To Do List" then you of all people should know how uncertain I am of where I'm going with my life right now. I wish there were a job that would pay me to do everything I've ever wanted. Then I wouldn't have a problem, but, alas, I am not well known enough to do something like that. I don't know enough people to start something where they'd say "Oh look! It's Sabrina! Lets see if we can pay her to go party at our hotel so she can post it on her blog how awesome it is so her followers will come!" Nope. But still, I'll work  my way to my dream job my own way! It wont be easy, and I'll need help, but I know I can do it. 

Any who, thanks for reading my little panic attack guys. Sorry to just go off like that, but I needed to let it out. I'll end with some nice picture to make it better :3

I chose this image to represent my situation. Even though I feel like all is lost, Hope Remains. Thanks for reading.