I'm Still Here

Well, I'm still taking Photos. I learned that I really enjoy taking pictures of the sky.  It's large and beautiful and that makes it the perfect model. The sky has no bad angel and is never exactly the same. Within minutes, or seconds, it can look completely different than it did before. To capture the perfect moment is an art and my picture will be the only picture of this exact scene ever, and it will never repeat exactly the same. No one else can capture it.

Haven't Quit Yet!

Hey guys!!! :D So here's a picture I took for my photography class. I know I probably wont be going into photography, but I do still enjoy all different forms of art. And for my book, I pitched my idea to a small production team and they had shown interest in my story and I might even start up on making it and turning it into a graphic novel. I am very excited about that. I even asked to hear their thoughts and everything they said inspired me even further. I can't wait to continue!

P.S.
Sorry its been a long time, but my computer had gotten the blue screen of death and my brand new phone was stolen, so I hadn't been able to make any posts or even get pictures of my art.

Pie Attempt

So, I attempted to make a pie the other day, but it was the first time ever and I did it ALL BY MYSELF. :D I have to say, though, it wasn't that bad. I started of thinking, "I feel inspired! I'm going to make something!" I had been watching a lot of "Master Chef" and seeing all those home cooks make those thing made me want to try. The last episode I saw they had all made cheesecake, and I LOVE cheesecake. I was going to attempt that, but it takes a lot of prep and a lot of ingredients I didn't have. I looked through my kitchen to see what I had and I had pineapple, flour, butter, sugar(and brown sugar) as well as a pie tin and various other things I needed to make a pie,  so that's how I decided it. I made a nice big mess in my kitchen but I managed to make a pretty decent crust, a nice filling(even if it WAS only pineapple) and I put it in the oven at 350degrees and after ten minutes I put some foil over it, after a bit longer I cut a circle in the foil and put it back on for the remainder of the cooking time. When it was done my whole house smelled of sweet pineapple and the crust. For a first try without help(at age 17) I think I did pretty well. The crust was a pretty decent thickness at the bottom, but was a little thick in the edge where the tin goes up, it was a little thin and it probably could have cooked a little longer, but the crust tasted mouthwatering and the pineapple was hot and sweet straight out of the oven. My sister ate over half of the pie all on her own(and I ate the rest :P) I think that this could count as a small victory and a learning experience in my book.

If you have any questions, pie making tips or even want to share a recipe, feel free to comment below. Thanks for reading.

Lessons learned

So it occured to me that life is tough. Its a simple thought that people tend to overlook. Instead of thinking "oh well, this will pass and it will get better" we tend to think "why me? " This form of thinking is very self centered. Not in a bad way, I just meant literally. We think that we are the exception, that nothing bad is ever supposed to happen to us. I am the one and only, I'm the reason the world can live on. What will they do withourt me?  Of course I'm not saying that I don't think that way, but I feel like if we all become aware of this thinking, then maybe we can begin to change it. Instead of "get out of my way I want to go home," you might be thinking,"gee, I bet these people want to go home just as bad as myself, maybe even more. What if the person who just cut me off has a wife in labor and I'm in their way instead the other way around." I'm just saying, maybe we can catch our thoughts next time we're feeling like the worlds against us. Because life is tough and everyone has to deal with it, not just you or me.

Camping

I guess I can't really camp professionally, but it is one hell of an awesome hobby! Its a great way to get yourself outta the house and have fun. I just took a trip to Bishop, CA for Mule Days and it was awesome! I enjoyed the site I stayed at, Millpond. It had fully functioning bathrooms and showers, a cute stream running through the whole site and large fire pits perfect for making s'mores! Once you get to town I suggest you go to the visitor center. The guys in there are very patient and extremely helpful. Not to mention the cute things you could buy there or all the brochures advertising some great places to visit. In town I really enjoyed walking from one end to the other looking in windows and browsing the shelves. Even if you don't plan to buy anything you can come across some really cool things. Paintings, antiques, cowboy hats, boots, books, art supplies, vendors selling food and all sorts of exciting things. I can honestly say I spent my memorial weekend well.

Mermaids

 

 So it has come to my attention that I draw some pretty nice mermaids, but if I try other stuff... well not always quite as nice. It kinda just comes to me when its a mermaid, but I have to fight my imagination when trying to make other things. Also, I noticed that I'm really bad at drawing males. I guess its cuz I'm a girl, but still, its not easy when I want to draw some cool scene with people fighting and I'm limited to who I can use :S Oh well. I'll work it out eventually. Any who, I drew this yesterday(which happened to be my mother's birthday) and I liked it, so here it is :D

Feeling Down

You know that feeling you get when you feel like everything is crashing around you and you feel your impending doom looming right before you, but you have no choice but to go forward and get crushed by the weight of failure and all the judgement and disappointment that will be thrown at you by everyone who knows you (anywhere from friends to siblings to your friends parents)? Yeah... I got that feeling and it keeps coming back to kick me in the shin and laugh in my face. I don't feel like going into specifics, but I needed to talk about it to someone, and who better than my imaginary friends on the internet? XP If someone DOES read this, oh well, and if not, all the better. Any who... I'm going to a big failure in the face of my family and friends soon and I'm not looking forward to it, but as I always tell myself, "Life goes on,"... its how I live. I could be facing something that makes me want to curl up and cry, but my failures aren't going to stop everyone else. No matter what I do its still going to happen, and I might as well face these problems head on. Despite what people think of me(brave, outgoing, smart) I know I',m WAY outta my league when it comes to everything I've been doing lately. Everyone had expected so much from me and I'm letting them down... I still think I'm going to make a difference SOMEWHERE and SOMEHOW, but when and how are still a bit questionable to me. If you've seen my "To Do List" then you of all people should know how uncertain I am of where I'm going with my life right now. I wish there were a job that would pay me to do everything I've ever wanted. Then I wouldn't have a problem, but, alas, I am not well known enough to do something like that. I don't know enough people to start something where they'd say "Oh look! It's Sabrina! Lets see if we can pay her to go party at our hotel so she can post it on her blog how awesome it is so her followers will come!" Nope. But still, I'll work  my way to my dream job my own way! It wont be easy, and I'll need help, but I know I can do it. 

Any who, thanks for reading my little panic attack guys. Sorry to just go off like that, but I needed to let it out. I'll end with some nice picture to make it better :3

I chose this image to represent my situation. Even though I feel like all is lost, Hope Remains. Thanks for reading.